SHE WANTS TO SAY SORRY

            Well, all i could think of is she just wants to say sorry. that means she finally realized her mistake, after all that time she finally knew it wasn't right. yeah it took her like two years to see what others saw long time ago but at least she did.
            i feel so sad for her, something is eating her soul a life, she needs a new pure beginning so she can start over and forget that horrible experience. i told her..... before you start over you clearly have some unfinished business, seal it so you can move on at last. she came up with a plan after thinking a lot ,doing lots of meditation and asking for god's guidance.
             she will simply say SORRY,  she will show remorse to those who need it, she will apologize to those who deserve one. yes it is not going to be easy but it will be enough to heal her increasing pain. she is now doing her best to reach them despite the obstacles others put in her way, they simply are blinded with there own perspective to the degree of trashing what she is trying to do or even seeing it as something with bad intentions.
            i respect her so much, i respect her bravery although she doesn't see herself this way, she is embarrassed from GOD. so i want to tell her that GOD is forgiving, GOD will appreciate your efforts so you should too. be happy and grateful that you finally woke up from your comma, be happy that you are trying to do the right thing. SEE how brave you are because it is not an easy thing for a lot of people to admit there mistakes and say sorry .... so i respect you and any sane person will do too. YOU ARE MY HERO.

PAUSING

         i didn't think it will be that hard but it turned out to be more than just HARD. i decided to pause. i can't continue like that , i have lots of doubts about loads of stuff, i am over thinking about things. i even came to the point in which i lost my perspective about what's right and what's not. so i had to PAUSE.
          NOW i have to activate my plan B which i clearly don't know anything about!!!. i am a believer ... i believe everything happens for a reason ... i believe i will survive this as long as i have faith. so after that being said i still feel like crap although i know i did the right thing
          THE RIGHT THING!!!?? not so sure about that . i just did a thing .. i feel it is what i wanted to do long time ago so yes i will support my call and accept the outcome whatever it was.
         SO about my plan B one thing for sure it will be nothing like my plan A . don't laugh ...  it is a start , sometimes all you need to achieve a big success is a START. i will reorganize my priorities, i will explore my options , work on my weaknesses and i will make good use of my strengthens. i will try not to redo any mistakes and believe more in what i can do. i am an optimistic sunshine ...a force to be reckoned with ... a success. SO if pausing means moving on to what's better then i will happily PAUSE.

  

happens to all of us 2

   ok, bare with me here
what is it with mean people? don't they know the truth about themselves? they are filled with hatred and grudge towards anyone's success. i hate having to be around them, they radiate negativity and bad energy, they are ruining my beautiful, pure aura. I HATE THEM
   imagine having to actually work with one of those people ........... and to be honest they are everywhere. you can quit your job just to save your soul and that means ...... SHIT YOU LET THEM WIN. or you can man up a little bit and know that you are already a winner as long as they are trying to destroy you ....... COZ NO ONE GOES AFTER LOSERS. 
      those losers act like your B.F.F but they are really wish you were dead. you know ... they know.. and they will never stop. it is like oxygen to them ....... stealing your success, your work that what feeds there pathetic souls. don't feel sorry for them ... just fight back with grace. it is not easy but it defines you as tough and unbreakable as you already are.
       and believe me people know whose good and whose not .... GOD knows ....... just think of it as a test that god gave you to strengthen you and make you be always with him. it is a privilege that lots of people would kill to have ....so i like to think of it as bless from GOD and that's sure ... enough to define who i am and what i am capable of doing ........ so losers heads up ... there is a new sheriff in town.