HAPPINESS IS.....

       It comes a time when you think you are going to find happiness, then you realize YOU ARE NOT THERE YET!!!!
       So what is happiness? what is that feeling that became so rare to be achieved?. I used for quite sometime to think that i will achieve happiness may be by getting a new job or going out with my friends or just by doing something new then i ask myself that  ARE YOU HAPPY NOW??
       Well , no no no big fat no , i am not happy , may be i smile a lot but what's inside my heart, mind and soul is sadness, worrying , thinking a lot about everything important and trivial SO from where i am standing that's anything but happiness.
       Where is my peace of mind, the satisfaction with whatever outcome Allah gives me? you know ... from a while ago i quit my job because i was not happy anymore among other stuff and since that time i stayed home so i became obsessed with the idea of finding a job just to have something to do and stop people from interfering in my business - as if that will stop them - 
        Anyway i got accepted in some teaching positions but that was no longer my passion, i have passion for something else now and i really want to follow that. So the situation was start working in something won't add up to me  OR chase rainbows ... follow my dream.
       Here in that situation i knew what happiness is by being completely satisfied with my decision which was taken after lots of prayers to Allah.
      I wanna be happy , have no regrets , i wanna feel it from inside my heart , mind and soul.I want me to be happy and satisfied with whatever outcome Allah gives me.
      After that being said i realized that happiness has lots of definitions depending on man's interpretation to it. SO my friend seek happiness and enjoy it while you can. You know life is short .. don't waste it in stuff that will make it shorter. SEIZE all opportunities that will make you happy from inside and outside even for a short amount of time .. YOU WON'T KNOW IF YOU WILL EVER HAVE THAT AGAIN OR NOT.

VICTIM

I lay alone in my bed at night

Getting ready for the voices inside of my head to fight

I am a victim to my own self

I made the choices regardless the consequence

Lived in indifference

Disrespecting what I believe in

Mislead by the fake perfect picture

I hit rock bottom and worse

Feelings of regression and remorse

I wish … if only won't help anymore

I rise above trying to gain control

I am falling apart yet walking tall

Nothing will ever break me

As long as I have ALLAH to believe in

I immune myself with calls and prayers

Hoping for scares to heal

Hoping for pain to disappear

 

RA7ALA

I am a RA7ALA in a weird weird universe

Doing everything and also the reverse

Right is not anymore

Wrong is becoming more and more

I seek the ultimate truth of existence

Wish I had a lead to follow

People keep judging and judging

Justifying your crises

Giving no solution to any

I say stop … it is not right

Yet right is not anymore

I close my eyes … hope to disappear

Orb to a faraway place

With no voices in my head to hear

I open my eyes … nothing changed

I am stuck … we all are

But with my mind I go far and far

The weight is too much

I am moving plan less

The good voice say … cheer up … you are moving

You didn't actually stop … you didn't give up

A FAIRY TALE

Inside the enchanted forest I go

In which all the impossible dreams could come true

With a pure sky that sparkles and glow

A princess … the fairest of them all

Gliding happily with an angelic soul

Alone she goes … fears no more

With a sword of wisdom

A reason to fight for

Following her optimistic heart

Till she finds what is true

Inside the enchanted forest I go

A knight … the bravest of them all

Making his impossible dream come true

Hearing a voice of a passionate heart

Seeking a magical start

Closing their eyes

Searching for one another

Wishing a life time of love together

The curse is broken

Snow falls between charming arms

True love wins

A forever after truth that makes an unbelievable sense

HARASS NO MORE

     So she said, if i am walking down the street, on my right side was some dogs and on my left side some guys, i will for sure walk among dogs ....  IT WILL BE SAFER!!!!

    Safer !!!! from what? she said i would take my chances with angry street dogs rather than take it with guys who would harass me.

   Say no more, i got your point sister and i think all girls all over the world  will agree with me. till when we girls have to walk looking over our shoulders afraid from disgusting nasty people who have no control over there needs so they sexually harass girls, women or anything that looks female to them?

    you know studies have been made about this phenomena, causes have been declared, social and psychological studies are also done too, i have one word CRAP.

    CRAP CRAP CRAP .... IF YOUR SICK GO TO A DOCTOR .. KILL YOUR SELF .. I DON'T CARE. Why do we suffer over actions that not ours? not my fault ... not any girls fault and never will be PERVERTS ..

CRY FOR HELP

The more I try to forget

I remember more

A feeling of restrictions and unsafe

Lost in so many ways

Between myself and I

A lifetime battle

Thoughts are fighting

They are out of control

Sleepless nights … busy mind

Peace is away in a deserted island

Unreachable

I am going crazy

Silent is my new best friend

I have all the words yet I choose not to

Talking is hard

Being heard is harder

A contagious contradiction is spreading

Keeping the trashy ones

Pushing away the keepers

Forming an unstable behavior

Breathing so hard

Suffocated

Help … help … help

Yet … not heard