HARD TO DECIDE

Doesn’t belong despite trying

Uptight they say

Not flexible enough

Lives in a utopia of her own creation

In which it is all about morals and dignity

Defensive when messing with her pure aura

They insist … not flexible enough

How excruciating is that?

Having to let your innocence go

Just to cope with the freaky creepy flow

Compelling unfair reality

Selfish disrespectful people

In a materialistic universe

Forcing you to be so many people you despise

Tell you lose it all

You become so many that you can't control

Losing to win

Winning to lose

A sad compromise you are forced to choose

BACK OFF PEOPLE

     The first 19 years of my life were the best. no responsibilities, no worries ... NOTHING. Now if you could just see me, you would be super surprised. That doesn't apply only on me, but everyone else of my generation. 
     Anyway, after graduation you start to face the reality , and believe me when i say if you had the choice to stay a child you would defiantly GO FOR IT. Imagine all your dreams about building your own career in the field you chose slip away and there is nothing you can do about it.
     As a result it is normal when you find a business meager or accountancy meager working as a WAITER. Also teachers working as call centers or PR agents or  a doctor working as a chief ..... .........
    For me proudly after struggling for a while in my field which is journalism specially freestyle writing ... i switched to teaching English for KG.  I chose that field after failing to do what i love ... i go to an English magazine asking for a shot, they say at least 2 years of experience working in an english magazine abroad " preferable". SERIOUSLY 
    I didn't give up i decided to do what i love as well as gain money by working as a teacher. I even started to adjust all my life with that thought just to reach the satisfaction level i seek.
    But in Egypt no one will ever leave you in peace, they have to make you everyday remember what you already didn't forget. They give you the frustrating talks, the petty looks as if your dying from cancer or something. MIND YOUR F****N BUSINESS.
    I just want to be left alone, me and all those who suffer from the same ordeal. ENOUGH what we are going through.
just back the hell off and let us LIVE IN PEACE.
 P.S  ......... just to be fair some of my generation are working in the fields they love lets say like 10% and the rest are SCREWED UP JUST LIKE ME ...... GUYS ... YOU ... ARE ... NOT ... ALONE