CRY FOR HELP

The more I try to forget

I remember more

A feeling of restrictions and unsafe

Lost in so many ways

Between myself and I

A lifetime battle

Thoughts are fighting

They are out of control

Sleepless nights … busy mind

Peace is away in a deserted island

Unreachable

I am going crazy

Silent is my new best friend

I have all the words yet I choose not to

Talking is hard

Being heard is harder

A contagious contradiction is spreading

Keeping the trashy ones

Pushing away the keepers

Forming an unstable behavior

Breathing so hard

Suffocated

Help … help … help

Yet … not heard

FORGIVE TO FORGET

     how can you fix your broken self ... rise after falling so many times ... how can you rebuild your self image ?
     how can you change the feeling of sickness and disgust over some shitty decisions you made without thinking? how can you explode ... go crazy and say out loud a message like " i hate you .. i hate the day i saw you ..i hate everything about you ..you made me angry .. i wanna erase any memory i had with you" or you can say any other message that will release the anger inside of you.
     lots of people tried the FORGIVENESS THERAPY. it is the higher road. it is the kind of therapy that proves you are much better than anyone hurt you. that  therapy requires strengthen , faith in god and well.
     although the rude way calm you down for a while, forgiveness calm you down forever and give you the peace of mind you seek.
     after going through an ordeal and getting angry .. upset ..pissed off .. after screaming and losing part of you .. after changing and becoming dark .. after saying all the nasty words you wanted to say ... try to make peace with yourself ... try to forgive not for anyone but for you .. your own self .. forgiveness will help you to let go .. to move on .. to  FORGET. 

THE CURSE OF THE DRESS

    The dress was beautiful, amazing and fits just perfect she couldn't believe it was that good. it made her feel that she is an intelligent princess. the dress was unusual .. unique .. it gave her that feeling of relief just by putting it on. anyway she had the dress, she wore it , she felt like a princess exactly as she imagined.  she used to take a look at it from time to another , at first it was normal but after that she started to notice the change .
   the beauty of it started to fade away, also when she tried it on again it didn't fit her anymore. her life started to go down problems , fights , bad daydreams and nightmares. she wasn't connecting with her aura anymore. it was all black dark horrible. sadness was her best friend and the dress wasn't the dress she bought.
    a friend told her that this dress was cursed, God didn't approve it , something like that. she didn't believe it, she prayed and tried to calm herself down and convince herself that it was just a dress. just a dress ......... but it wasn't
    days were passing and prayers were done .... nothing changed. the dress was becoming more and more ugly, now she can see it .... it was obvious ..  that dress was cursed ..... she finally got control of her own .. she took it and gave it away .... the dress wasn't meant to be hers for sure .... she didn't love it .... she just liked how it looked ... since it was gone everything came back to normal ... still has some bad feelings yet the main cause of the problem is now away.
   i saw the dress .... believe me .... you won't like it ... it is CURSED ... it was UGLY  from the beginning .. that cursed dress made her see what she wanted to see and feel ... it was  a LIE ... HOCAS POCAS